It had been an especially difficult week for me leading up to this channel…read on as Gaia shares my experiences and opportunities for growth with the group.
The night is Friday, August 12th and our group has gathered to hear the teachings, once again, of Mother Gaia.
During the trance channel session they will refer to me as the Lighthouse. Simply put, I am the Light that spirit sees and they have chosen me as the vessel in this manner to guide others. To protect the identity of the participants they are recorded as the letter P, and Gaia as G. Please know that in reading this channeled message you will receive the energy as if you were a participant in the very space the messages were given. Namaste.
G: Welcome to all of you. New faces and old, I welcome you. It is I, Gaia. There are many stories to tell…and many adventures to take you on yet this evening. And as always, your Dear Lighthouse has provided us with many topics of teaching. She has given US permission to use herself once again to teach you.
The death of the ego is upon all of you. Are you finding yourselves having difficulties, frustrated, unbendable, unpliable, unmovable, and feeling it in places you may not have felt it before? Some of you might even feel, the words that are coming to my mind, shattered because of the experiences that you have been going through. Anyone here fit any of those descriptions?
Group: Yes.
Patrick: A creeping in of old patterns for myself; old feelings and old patterns.
G: Well said. It is no different for your Lighthouse. For she, herself has had a week of experiences. There are times, she will go through modes where everyone needs to know everything that’s going on in her life, and there are times when she’s very private and reclusive, we’ll say. When you find yourselves in those private reclusive states, do trust that is when you are doing the most healing. The most inner journey work. She has asked herself, “Am I depressed?” And the answer is “No.” But WE keep reminding her it is a journey that she is on. Some of you know this, but she has been hearing in her head, “Are you ready to be transformed?” And WE are asking all of you, “Are you ready to be transformed?”
Group: Yes!
G: Now, she’s been hearing the words but is uncertain exactly what that has meant. She just keeps seeing them in neon, floating across the screen in her mind, “Are you ready to be transformed?” WE have given her experiences this week that have tested her, that have tested her faith, tested her trust and she, like most of you, has a lot of work to do. Yes, she may be sitting here channeling a being such as myself, but she is no different than any one of you sitting in your beautiful vessels. One day you have the strength and the courage of that lion walking through the jungles, the African safari deserts, and then the next day she finds herself meek as a mouse. Not wanting to peek out for the dangers that lurk. Anyone felt that way of late?
Group: Um-hum, yes.
G: But are you ready to be transformed? Are you ready once and for all to finally peek out of your holes and regardless of the dangers that you see, you keep coming out? Because all those dangers are, are your creations and different aspects of yourself that you’ve been battling through your entire existence here on this planet. A lot of these things were created from a very young age when you didn’t have a means to make a choice for yourself but had to be, how shall I say, your parental roles were telling you how to act, what to wear, who to talk too, what to do and how to do it, and so on and so forth. So you’ve created different dangers for yourselves or perceived dangers that if I talk to that person, there must be something dangerous about it. Or if I go to that city there must be something dangerous about it. Or if I follow that path, I will come upon dangers that I’m not prepared for.
And WE are telling you, that is what your whole existence has lead up to, to this point, facing all of those things that you, yourself created, for your journey and for your learning. Now, no two people in here and no two people on this planet have the same set of challenges or dangers created for their selves. You may even equate those dangers to dragons. Inner darkness, inner fears. All WE are talking about here are fears. That’s all the dragon is…that’s all the darkness is…is fears. That’s it. And you’re being made to face, more than any other time in your existence, you are being made to face those fears.
She has asked US to speak this evening on a show that she watched, as she has already expressed, called Finding Joe (On Gaia TV). At the end of the show it’s not just Finding Joe it’s finding Lisa, it’s finding Patrick, it’s finding yourself where you are. And there was a beautiful story expressed in this show that you all find yourself at the edge of the forest, no different than your head popping up out of this hole that you’ve kept yourself in. But at the edge of this forest, in order to be successful in moving through those darkest times, you must create your own path and your own entry in; for if you follow the path of someone else, it’s not your path. No one can go through it for you.
Don’t short cut your experiences by trying to follow someone else’s path. You don’t know the journey that they have created for their selves. For maybe on the outside it looks like they’re going through the exact same thing; everyone’s journey is different. Every single journey is different. How you react to the experiences you’re having, every single one of you reacts differently. Every single one of you would have a different opinion or a different way of looking at it or a different perspective of the experience. So that is why, as you’re peeking out of your own holes, you’re seeing what you created over your lifetime of your beliefs of how you feel people see you…of what you think people are thinking about you or what you believe others need you to do. How many here have held their selves back from doing something simply out of the fear of what others will say if you do it?
Group: Yeah, Oh yes.
G: And what if I try and I fail…I’ll look bad. They’ll laugh at me. They’ll say I told you so’s. There is a process going on here in humanity, in each and every one of you, and you’re feeling the pull or you wouldn’t be here. To move through your own individual darkness’s, your own individual fears and the death of that part of your ego that keeps you trapped into a paradigm of what you think people think you should be doing. If you didn’t have to worry about what other people think or what your own ego was thinking about what you were doing, what would you do? What would you do differently? Would you pick a different career or would you try moving into something different? Anyone? What would you do differently? Or are you living your absolute truth?
P1: Follow our hearts instead of our minds.
G: Yes. Who here when you were just a young child had dreams of what you wanted to be when you grew up? And who is that person? Anyone? And why aren’t you that person? What stopped you? What stopped you from the creativity of becoming that which you dreamt of being as a young being?
P2: Fear.
G: It’s absolutely fear. Nothing but. You can use the excuse of saying, “Well I didn’t come from a privileged family, we didn’t have the money.” It’s fear. “I couldn’t publish my photography, who would buy it?” Fear. “I couldn’t possibly be a dancer, I have two left feet. Who would dance with me, or who would watch me?” Fear. “I couldn’t possibly write that book, who would read it?” Fear. “I couldn’t possibly create that jewelry, who would buy it? Who would wear it?” Fear. The list goes on and on and on and on and on…until you allow that part of yourself to go through the death process, you cannot become the brilliance that you are. Until you allow yourself to go through some of the darkest moments of your life and really take a journey inward, expose yourself, expose all of those fears, and see them for what they really are, you’ll never be what you came here to be. What set’s you apart is your beliefs. A belief whether you can, or a belief whether you can’t, both are right. If you believe you can’t, you’re absolutely right, you can’t and you won’t. But if you believe you can, you’re absolutely right, you can and you will. What do you buy into? What belief system do you buy into?
WE are going tell a little story about your Lighthouse from this week. See if she can get through this without being a bawling little bumbling snot ball over here. (Group laughter). No one here knows this, but her Mother had a procedure this week and she has spent the past two and a half to three days in the hospital with her Mother. Now, her Mother goes down, is prepped for surgery and is going in for her procedure and your Lighthouse takes a moment to go grab a drink and something to eat. And she happens to be in line behind one of the beings who came in and collected her Mother for surgery. Now, mind you, they had been waiting all day, and her Mother just happened to be the last procedure of the day, so the anxiety had been building all day and what is anxiety?
Group: Fear.
G: Fear. She sees the woman yawning, leaning up against the wall, in pure exhaustion but knows that this is the woman who’s going to be in her Mother’s procedure. And what does the mind start to do but tell stories and what is that?
Group: Fear.
G: Fear. Oh, it get’s better. She hears the woman place her order for five people, she places an order for ‘refreshers.’ That exact term. Refreshers. Now, for those of you who have a Mother that you love dearly, that’s under the knife, do you want to hear someone that’s going to be in the surgery team order refreshers for the surgery team? So what did that amplify in her?
Group: Fear.
G: Fear! So she proceeded to have a little mini panic attack, ordered $17 worth of stuff she couldn’t eat by herself. But as you can tell by this physical being she turns to what? Food for comfort. She forgot everything she knew! She forgot how to trust! She forgot how to breathe! She walks out of the store, her Father saying to her, “What in the world are you doing?” Why did you buy all that stuff?” And not to instill fear in him she kept it to herself. Get’s on the elevator, forgets to get off the elevator…and the doors close and she goes on a journey. Get’s to a different floor, stands and stares at the people, forgets to get off the elevator and goes to a different floor. What is happening to this being at this moment, is she’s loosing her ever-loving mind because of what?
Group: Fear.
G: Fear. So by the time she finally steps back off the elevator on the proper floor, she sees her Father beaming from ear to ear, the procedure’s done, Mom did well. Now, she by this time has four bags that she is carrying of snacks and drinks that one being couldn’t eat in two weeks. (Group laughter). Huge lessons here! And what WE are going to say to you is, if it were her Mother’s journey to die on that operating table, there’s nothing she could have done about it but accept it. Correct?
Group: Yes.
G: Because it is her Mother’s journey. But it just so happens, she is still here and doing well. So one might say, maybe your Lighthouse knows too much and taps in too deeply…but at that moment in time she forgot everything she knew and she forgot how to tap. She went so far into fear that her mind created fifteen hundred stories of which none of them came true. What was she focusing on? Where was her belief at that time? Not on the highest outcome, right? But on how is this going to impact me? What am I doing here? What is this all for? Who will I be with the absence of all those beings around me that I love?
You will still be you. But a grander version of you through the lessons and the experiences that you’re learning through great loss and great pain. For WE are here to tell you, Dear Ones, it is in some of the greatest losses and the greatest pain that you achieve the most success and the most growth in your journeys. That is the death of self. That is the death of your non-belief. This has been a huge week of learning for her. Once again, to trust that for whatever the outcome, it is perfect…whatever the outcome it is perfect. What is not perfect is your belief about that outcome. Do you see the difference?
Group: Yes.
G: Now, you find yourself at the edge of the forest, what path do you choose? Do you choose the path that is already worn down or do you choose to create your own path and create the greatest and grandest transformation in yourself possible. You certainly can take the easy path but it will not be the richest and the deepest experience for yourself. And you certainly will not come back with the stories as if you had to forage through the forest making your own path. Do you see the difference?
Group: Yes.
G: Who here has been at the edge of that forest of late?
Group: Oh yeah.
G: What path are you choosing? Or are you standing frozen, not able to move? Afraid of what you might uncover, those big bad scary things? I’m telling you all those big bad scary things are nothing but your own fears of what you might uncover in yourself. Because that journey into the forest is simply a journey into yourself, into you.
Nightmares through your dreamtime are nothing but the big bad scary things that you won’t look at during your conscious waking moments. So, it brings itself and creates a world in your dreamtime to bring awareness to that which you still need to look at. How long are you going to circle the woods before you make the decision to go in? To go in and find yourself and come out the being you’ve always desired and wished you could be but are unsure of how to get there. And what is unsure of how to get there really?
Group: Fear.
G: Just fear. That’s all, just fear. If you didn’t have to worry about what anyone else thought about you or what you wanted to do, would you do it?
Patrick: Yep.
G: And if you would do it, what would that be? If you can imagine it you can create it. What is happening is an absence of creativity. The absence of allowing yourself to be creative through whatever expression that looks like or feels like. Be it music, be it any type of art, be it dancing, be it just coloring. Who here has thought of something and the next thing you know some body else has already wrote about it or created it?
P1: Yes.
P2: I have.
G: And the difference is, that they choose not to buy into their fears and act upon their inspiration and act upon their imagination and bring their creativity to life. While you were still down in your hole wondering if I come out will anybody be looking at me? What will they say about me? What will they say about what I want to do? Who will try to stop me? Are you living the grandest life that you can live? And if not, why? Why? Truly why?
P1: Fear
G: It is all about allowing the inspiration of your creativity to come alive without the fears of the what if’s, or the woulda, coulda, shoulda’s. Or who might say, if anyone, if anyone is saying don’t do it, that is more of a reason to do it because it’s their fears projecting onto you. And WE are here telling you that if you live the life that you came here to live with the absence of fear, you will find bliss. Who here is living their bliss? And if not, why? What is holding you back? What is stopping you from finding and following that bliss? What is bliss? But living in a pure state of joy. And what is joy? Being all that you came here to be with the absence of fear and fully trusting and fully moving through all of these experiences. Allowing yourself to be creative, whatever that looks like, and just making it happen.
It doesn’t have to be something that makes you millions, that’s not what we’re talking about. And if it does increase your monetary income, then fantastic. But it is more about you living in a state of pure joy and bliss and living your truth. Right now, including your Lighthouse, you’re living the truth of other people. What other people have set up for you, and the beliefs that they have instilled in you from birth. If this Lighthouse wouldn’t have followed what everyone else said she should be doing or couldn’t do, she would have been traveling this entire globe, camera in hand, back pack on back. But she believed that was not a job that you could make money at.
How many of you have had an inspiration and people have poo-pooed and said, “You’ll never make money at that! That’s not a job!”
P3: Definitely over here…a lot.
G: Then WE ask you to release yourself from the shackles of that thinking. Do you see the body language of this being right now? She’s even got her hands underneath her legs as if she’s shackled by what WE are speaking. You may not understand, but she still hears US and even though WE are pure in our light and in our energy, the physical being is still moving through a lot of fears herself. And she too, is finding discomfort in what WE are saying and WE are just bringing your awareness to her body language, as she is no different than you. She’s moving through it just as you are…do you understand?
Group: Yes.
G: You are not to judge her for it. You’re not to judge anyone for where they are and why they are there. You’re not to judge anyone for their past choices or their past experiences. You’re not to judge anyone for their dreams. And if it invokes something in you as to why could that not be me…then that’s where you really need to do some inner journey work and find out why did that just invoke that response in me? Does anyone have anything to share about this topic we’ve been discussing?
Patrick: I came home from work today and I laid down and took a nap for a half-hour or forty minutes or so, and what woke me up was, I had a dream, it wasn’t really a dream, but this negative entity came to me and it jolted me awake. I didn’t expect that but right there it was. I didn’t really see it but I felt its presence. I felt the negativity, so it jolted me awake. But, it didn’t scare me because I knew that what I’ve been going through is a lot of what we are talking about here. That was darkness…that represented darkness and negativity that I still have to face if I’m going to move forward.
And it reminded me that we always want to seek positive energy or light this or light beings that or whatever, but we forget that our experience is half positive and half negative. And to be able to experience the whole we have to bring those two halves together. We have to experience both halves, and that’s the negative and the positive. Often we consider fun, easy times, or abundance to be positive, but to me how often do you learn whenever the time was fun and easy and positive and you had plenty of money? You learn very little.
It’s when you experience the darkness, the pain, the set backs, like this show today (“Finding Joe” on GaiaTV), it said loss of a job, loss of a marriage, loss of a house or whatever it is, those are the times that you really excel. It’s through those negative times we grow. And the degree of the negative experience is the degree you have to excel and move forward much faster than, to me, positive or fun experiences.
Throughout my work career I’ve built a lot of machines and every now and then I would build a machine where everything worked great, the electronics worked, the pneumatics worked, the mechanics, everything just worked perfectly…just like it was designed. Those are the most worthless experiences I’ve ever had in my working career. It’s the machine that didn’t work, it’s the ones that short circuited, it’s the ones that broke or failed, those are the ones that made me better at what I was doing.
It’s kind of an ego thing to say, “Oh my God, I built that and it worked right off the bat”, but I didn’t learn anything. Might as well not have even wasted my time, so to speak. It had its value, but you understand what I’m saying. It was the negative, it was the hard, it was the head scratching…those were the times that made me better.
P4: I would agree with that. I’ve done my job for a long time and people don’t ever call me when they are happy, they are calling me because something is broken. And I’ve thought about that lately, about why I’m in this field and why I’ve continued to be in it, and why I’m attracted to it, and it’s been one of the largest growing experiences of my life. Because I’ve learned not to necessarily always react.
Historically I’ve been reactive to other people and their emotions and things like that, but as times gone on, I didn’t even realize it, but it’s been one of the largest factors for me in dealing with that negativity. That has been a big push in my life, other peoples emotions and what they’ve done with them and how I relate to them. It’s not that I put up with abuse or anything like that, it’s not that, it’s just I’ve learned that now I have a different perspective on those experiences. I don’t take them personally and I understand its just their emotions, they’re upset, and I’ve translated that into a lot of other things, so it’s really funny that you would say it like that, because what you said, “You never learn anything from the stuff that you just throw it together and it’s great.”
P5: Well I’ve noticed, for me, when I had some pretty traumatic things happen with some friends leaving my life, basically in an ungracious way, I learned a lot. As painful as that was, that experience, I learned a lot about myself. I think that sometimes when you have these challenges, like with the machines that don’t go right, there’s a certain thing that you learn about yourself, your tenacity, your willingness to look at something and problem solve through it and expand your awareness of how it’s working. Whether that’s with machines, or human beings, you can learn a lot about yourself.
It’s working through fear and that you don’t want to see people that you’ve known a long time leave your life, there’s a fear, there’s a void, whether it’s through death or just through taking a different path or whatever, or something not working quite right, somebody challenging you and in your face. It’s really important to stay present and see it through.
I’ve learned through challenges with other human beings. P7 would say, “Well, it’s about them, it doesn’t really have anything to do with you, it’s not personal.” And I would say, “Oh yes, it is, it’s personal, that hurt my feelings, so that’s personal.” And I’ve really come to see it’s not, it just took a few knocks on the head. And it was a very dear person that showed it to me, and I’m like WOW! I get it now! And even though that person isn’t in my life anymore, I appreciate so much what I was taught and I have a lot of love for that because I finally got it. But it had to be somebody close to me to teach me that. It couldn’t be just something far away. As uncomfortable as it is to let the ego die, it’s also more uncomfortable to carry it around with you. It’s much harder to carry it.
Patrick: Every single experience you have, every tiny moment, I don’t care what it is, every single moment is an opportunity you’ve drawn to yourself to look inside and slowly or quickly, however you choose, realize yourself as a pure love being. It’s a constant, and even when you think your not growing, you are growing, because you are having an experience, and every experience has value. So every value is a lesson learned.
P5: Years ago I would judge myself when something like that happened. I would say, “Oh what did I do wrong? I really messed up. How did I attract this to myself?” And I don’t see it that way anymore. I see it more as, “How can I speak from love to grow through this?” And when those things have happened it’s been, “Okay. How can I see it with the eyes of love? How can I deal with it?” Because it’s so much more freeing that way than to react in another way.
P2: It’s almost like self-judgment, really, when you sit there and you say, “How did I attract this to me?” Its really you’re looking at yourself and your blaming yourself for putting yourself in this situation, but you created it.
Patrick: Well, there’s a difference between saying “Why did I draw it to myself?” And then you can see it objectively, rather than, “Why was I attacked or why was I assaulted?” There’s a difference between seeing it through ego or through objectivity.
P5: My go to is…how can I see it through the eyes of love.
Patrick: And that’s hard to say, “Why did I draw this to myself?” Because then we take 100% responsibility.
P5: Well that’s that no judgment thing.
Patrick: Yeah, that’s tough, that’s extremely tough.
P4: Yeah, because in the moment it’s really hard when someone is screaming at you on the phone about something you can’t do anything about, or you can do something about but you’re just not doing it fast enough. It’s really hard to step back and be objective in that moment. When things are coming at you that fast on a day to day basis, and it’s only at times like this that you can sometimes really realize what’s happening.
P2: I think it’s incredibly important to be present, because that is where a lot of the learning process comes in…is in being present in the moment to actually see the experience going on. Because when you have someone yelling at you or talking down to you, what feels like an attack, you really have to work at it to shift yourself into a perspective of, okay, they are obviously dealing with something that they are being challenged with and I’m a variable that has just been placed on the playing board. Now, you basically have to say, “Okay, this is their side, I have my side,” and it isn’t an ego thing. It’s in understanding that they have an experience that they are working through and you are being who volunteered to essentially help them. You are learning yourself. You think, “Okay, you’re coming at me like this,” but the first thing I want to do is get all defensive and go, “No! No! No! You’re wrong!” You have to get into that position where you say, “I’m sorry you feel like this. I’m going to take a step back because what you’re dishing out, I don’t have to accept.”
P4: Yeah, that’s what I do and now I’ve noticed when a situation is like that for me, I’ll go, “Okay” and I will just accept what they are saying and it’s a signal to me that I’ve taken myself out of the situation where I know there are other things going on and it’s time to just step back.
Patrick: If somebody is lashing out at you in anger, or assaulting you, or victimizing you, they’re only responding out of the damage that they carry and you don’t have to get mad at them, you can start seeing that objectively, “Ah, ok. I know you had a tough childhood, you’re just doing the best you can.” Because people usually are doing the best they can.
P2: It’s seeing them from a different perspective and you say to yourself, “Okay, been through that and I’m just going to leave you to deal with this by yourself for a minute, if you need help, I’ll be here but at the same time I don’t have to take this because I know why this is happening.” It’s like doing energy healing, when you’re working through something, some times you have to take a step out of the energy field before you realize, “Okay what you’re feeling isn’t you, that it has nothing to do with you.” It’s really a challenge that puts you on the seat of how can you be nice and assertive without being a walking rug.
P6: I think it comes down to, in my profession, what I teach people that I work with…one of the best things that has ever been said is, “All behavior has meaning.” So anytime you are in a situation, just stop and remind yourself of that, then you’re able to say, “I can handle this.”
P1: I truly believe that all anger comes from pain; some pain somewhere. So it’s a lot easier for me to deal with anger because I understand it well. You have some pain from somewhere, from some time, so that’s why.
Patrick: And again, that’s fear right? A manifestation of fear.
G: But it lies in your ability to look at that pain and face your fears. That’s where your greatest transformations will take place. Excellent topic of conversation here this evening. WE would ask you to carry this on even after this evening. When you find yourselves in a state of panic or fear, ask yourself, why? Why am I reacting in this way? Why am I having this emotion? Experience? Something as simple as, and WE have to giggle because she is quite the drama queen, her lover (My husband Patrick) was cleaning before all of you beautiful souls showed up. And he removed something from the home that your Lighthouse is very attached to and feels is sacred to her. But the beauty of her Lover is, he’s attached to nothing, except her. What a great lesson this was for her. When she recognized the item was missing she immediately broke into tears…did she not?
Patrick: Yeah. (Group laughter)
G: Now, that item has since been returned. (Group laughter) But this is a great contrast for all of you to witness. A being with no attachment to anything and a being who is still working through the attachment of things. They are both great teachers to you. She is still learning a great deal. She did not have the appropriate time to go inward to figure out why that invoked such an emotion in her, but WE will not let her forget and she will go through that journey. Have you found yourselves in that place? Where a partner or someone doesn’t have an attachment to an item that you have an attachment to and it get’s moved or sold or given away, and then you fall apart when you realize that item is missing. Has anyone had that experience?
Group: Yes.
G: So why did that invoke a response in you? She’s realizing…it’s very interesting what this being is going through this week, but all the things she had to take with her on her journey to the hospital, her sister had to help her out to her car there were so many things that she took, in case this happens, or in case that happens. She might as well have just been a homeless person pushing her little cart into her Mothers hospital room.
Patrick: How can you be homeless when you take your home with you? (Laughter)
G: And the comedy of the situation is every time her Sister would ask for something, “Oh I brought that with me. Oh I have that.” Where is it in her the need to be that person for every one? Do you see that? There in lies another journey to another forest. But the point is, there is awareness and a need for her to get through these different forests. Do you understand?
Group: Um-hum.
G: Some of it will be from this lifetime but a lot of it will not be. So don’t just go searching for this existence, but look at all of your existences since your soul’s creation, this is very important. For a lot of what she is dealing with here is not even this lifetime. So don’t be afraid to ask yourself “Where’s the origination of this thought, feeling or emotion?” and go with the first image that comes in.
Are you ready to be transformed? And if you can answer “Yes,” then step into the forest. Create your own path, not the path that some else has laid before you, in order to have the greatest revelations and healing from those experiences. And WE promise you; you will be journeying towards a life of bliss if you do.
(Beginning of group Q&A)
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