Sometimes the lives that show us why we chose this incarnation aren’t fun to unearth. But if we understand that we did these things in the past for our Souls to learn about the world and the human existence, then we can remain objective as we discover who we have been in order to be the brave and magnificent beings we are now.
Because I respect you, the readers of Bellesprit, this column will show lives from the more challenging end of the spectrum – any life we might judge as good or bad, happy or miserable, is merely experience that the Soul craves on its path to Enlightenment.
Corbie
Question:
For the past 7 or 8 years Meg has been a best friend and mentor to me. Inexplicably, this past February she stopped contact with me. I have tried to understand why but I still don’t know. We didn’t have a fight and I have nothing that would lead me to understand why our friendship would stop. It’s been a real mystery. Not having Meg in my life has been one of the most difficult things I have gone through. She was such a major part of my life and then just disappeared with no explanation.
What kind of role does Meg play during this lifetime? Will Meg’s friendship come back into my life during this lifetime? Was this current separation pre-planned and if so, what was the reason for it? What karmic issues do we have to resolve during this incarnation? Can you help me to understand why I feel such a deep, deep connection to Meg?
Rita
I picked up five pertinent lives, but let’s just look at two:
TEACHER/STUDENT, GREECE, Socratic times: Meg was your teacher here, and you were a very eager but “weathervane” student. Meg was someone who carefully, methodically, explored arguments, rationales and theories. Meg saw in you a very promising but flighty mind. You were fascinated by the play of words and the joy of argument and exploration, but for Meg your actions were like being “in love with love” – you did not have a purpose behind your explorations and study other than to explore and study (in that sense, not learn and arrive at a conclusion). You also were far too concerned about how you came across to other teachers, other students and those towards whom you felt romantic attachment (including Meg, as male-male relationships were quite accepted in Greece at that time).
You studied with Meg for seven years, but at the end of that time, you were frustrated with how little special attention you were getting from Meg, and began to engineer situations where you were the one to come to Meg’s aid or rescue – social situations, monetary situations, whatever you could think of. Yet Meg refused to actively rely on you and sometimes would even allow herself to get into a difficult situation rather than accept your help which, she sensed, came with “strings.”
Finally, you left Meg and took up with another teacher, less ethical, who played on your vanity and need for approval. This teacher found Meg a competitor for students and cachet (this teacher thought as you did) and the two of you were successful in basically shutting Meg out of the school of philosophy in your city. Meg died obscure and impoverished, but by that time you had convinced yourself that she was “greatly flawed” and therefore deserved it.
FELLOW STUDENTS, Salerno/Padua, 15th century: Both of you grew up in Florence and wanted to study medicine. It was not quite what your families wanted, but as neither one was the first son, you had a bit more choice in what was important to you. Meg’s family was originally from the north, so they sent him to Padua; your family was more concerned with “the oldest and the best” so you went to Salerno. Meg was a year or two older than you were but in those days that didn’t cement you into different classes. You both returned to Florence when you were done with your studies. You spent your time ministering to the higher levels of society; Meg was more interested in continued study and had connections to Muslim/Islamic physician philosophy, which was rather frowned on by the religious community. There were several times when Meg came “thisclose” to arrest and trial, but as your family was more well placed than hers you always came to her rescue. This put a strain on the relationship; Meg resented always being seen as the ne’er do well when all she wanted was to understand medicine more thoroughly. Eventually the friendship soured and the two of you became estranged, simply because Meg hated being told she was “wrong” when she did not believe she was.
Meg is usually around just as your teacher for a short time, Rita. They key here for growth is to bless her, bless the time you have been together, learn from it and move on.
Question:
I have had a very traumatic life, feeling isolated, even though I was the eldest in a large family of girls. My parents were both alcoholics. There were actual abusive confinement issues as a child, with verbal and emotional abuse as well. Why did I come in with all of this?
Gigi
Gigi, when someone has this difficult a life in so many arenas, it is clear they are “wiping the slate clean” in as many ways as possible. You are the ultimate escape artist. Freedom has always been a byword for you. The lives I found for you may seem harsh, but please know that you did not do what you did in these lives because of any cruelty streak, but the desperate need for freedom. You have never wanted to be held down by rules and because you insist on having a higher IQ than normal in your incarnations, you were able to use that intellect to wiggle out of just about anything required of you. There were a number of “small” lives that I picked up, showing me that you run through the human existence very fast. Here are four:
A life in 17th century France: You were a fortune teller who sold potions, including poisons, to the rich. You loved being “outside the rules of society” and having power over the more gullible and more wealthy ladies and gentlemen who came to you. You were arrested and accused of assisting in a plot to kill a noble woman’s rival for her husband’s affection, as well as her children. In order to escape your own death (which you did not) you “told on” your mother (who had taught you everything) regarding her assisting the wealthy with abortions. She was arrested, tortured and killed. And you didn’t save yourself thereby.
A life in the 1820s: You were a British absinthe maker, trained in France by Pernod, who added bits of opium to the absinthe so that it was highly addictive. (Thus this time you agreed to be the victim of alcoholics, to do a quick ‘wipe’ of the Karma.)
A life in the American West, 1880s: dealing with Chinese women as an immigration officer who would take huge bribes in order to sneak the women in. They were promised the chance to find or reunite with their husbands, but instead were generally placed in San Francisco brothels or taken to remote “breeding farms.”
In 1930s California: You were a mother who wanted to be something big – an artist, a writer, an actress. Instead you ended up taking care of both your children and your (working and traveling) husband’s children by a former marriage. You went crazy because you were unable to have a moment’s peace. At one point you locked all your children in the coal cellar and just walked away. The kids were found a few days later, very weak from hunger but they survived. You wandered, always a little crazy, a little hungry, and never settling in one place – but you died at peace.
Gigi, it takes a courageous soul to experience so much in one life as you have chosen this time, in order to balance the energies. But from here on in, you can let go of the pain and confusion. The life difficulties have served their purpose, and the rest of your life is yours to choose in happier, more loving places and experiences. Many blessings.
Each month we will look at anywhere from one to three of our reader’s questions regarding past lives. Please remember that what I receive from the Akashic are only brief examples; there are likely many more lives touching on your question, but space is limited. If you want to do a full past life session with me, looking at your question in depth, please visit my website for details:
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