In October of 1998 I was given a wonderful gift. It was my birthday and my friend and mentor, Diane Terranova was hosting a past life artist at her spiritual center in Rochester, New York.
Diane insisted that I come and meet her friend, J. Lee Hall. As a birthday gift, J. Lee was to do a past life drawing for me. I was excited and intrigued to see who she would bring through from my previous lifetimes.
I sat with J. Lee in a small room adorned as her temporary studio. I noticed a large easel with a dark blue canvas attached to it and trays of chalk in a rainbow of colors placed to her left on a small table. J. Lee explained to me before she began that past life portraits are more than just a method of discovery of who one had been in a previous lifetime. It was much more than that. By learning of their story, it is a process in which we can access an understanding of any blockages or issues that have a root in that existence thereby assisting in realizing how they affect an individual in this lifetime. This process is to bring about a focus on healing the soul of any traumatic events as one works on their spiritual growth.
It made perfect sense to me. I have made some pretty ridiculous choices in my life so the idea of learning more about who I was and why sounded good to me. I wanted to work on my spiritual growth to find a sense of peace and happiness that I felt had been missing within me. Perhaps this would assist me with some answers and guidance toward my goal.
J. Lee instructed me to sit quietly, then turned her back to me in her chair, picked up a piece of white chalk and began scribbling; drawing circles and waves all over that beautiful blue canvas background. I remember thinking to myself, “What in the world is she doing? This doesn’t make any sense at all!” But I heard my guide speak to me as he whispered, “Patience!” J. Lee then stopped what she was doing, picked up a camera and took a picture of her scribbled masterpiece.
Silently she worked as she began to pick up various colored chalks from their trays and applied a bit of color here and there within those white scribbles. I noticed that she would often stop and tip her head as if she were listening to someone speak. Then she would pick up another color of chalk and fill in a bit more of the scribble. As I watched, I was amazed to see many faces begin to formulate within the scribbles; some large, some small. It was interesting to watch her work. There was no rhyme or reason to how she applied the color. She seemed to skip around all over the canvas filling in a bit of color, listening to the mysterious voice that spoke to her, changing color again and filling in some more.
Gradually facial images began to jump out at me from the canvas born within the scribbles, while other faces I had noticed before faded away behind the colors of chalk. It was so eerie looking at those faces. It felt as if I already knew each and every one of them. And those eyes! There was something very familiar with their eyes. I felt a chill run through my very soul as I gazed upon their faces. As tears began to well up in my eyes I could not wait to hear their story.
It took J. Lee about an hour and a half to complete her work on the canvas. Eight faces were staring at me through the colored chalk, all seeming to have a story of their own; all representing a lifetime of lessons and experience that helped to formulate the soul I had become. The thing I found most intriguing was their eyes. I knew I had seen those eyes before. They were the eyes of my soul. J. Lee snapped another photograph of her finished art, then took out a tape recorder, inserted a cassette tape, turned to face me as she began to record, telling the story of each face as they stared at me from a dimension of their own day and time.
Umani is from Big Island, Hawaii in 1779. He was a peaceful man, enjoying his life in harmony, when a stranger and his crew sailed to the Island from England. At first this stranger was welcomed, however, several days later, a dispute erupted and a battle ensued. Umani, along with several of his fellow men, fought against the English intruders resulting in the death of Captain James Cook.
Jeanine is from the year 1613 in Germany. The yellow marking at her ‘third eye’ denotes her strong psychic abilities, which explains why the words, ‘Jeanine’s Dreams’ are representative of her life. During the German 30 year war Jeanine would travel from camp to camp delivering messages to the soldiers to aid in their battle strategy; or to share information about their families back home. In addition, there is an image of a horse emerging from the left side of Jeanine’s head with the word ‘Faith.’ J. Lee Hall explained, “The horse is symbolic of a natural gift. Let’s say there is someone who likes to sing. When they sing, they sound okay. Then there is another who wants to sing, so they take singing lessons and when they sing, they sound pretty good. And then, there is a third who loves to sing and when they sing, they have the voice of angels; without ever having a lesson or voice training. That is the energy of the horse!” The horse represents your psychic gifts.
Ok’sha is from Indonesia. He was a poor man who made his meek living as a magician, the yellow symbol at his third eye again symbolizing his psychic abilities. Although he was poor, he was very happy and always smiling. He did not want for material wealth and was content with what he had in life.
Mechia is dated 339 BC and was one of the lovers of Alexander the Great. Upon his untimely death in the year of 323 BC, Mechia was devastated as she was truly in love with Alexander. Her image seems to appear frail and near death because in her mourning over his death, she chose to starve herself feeling she would be unable to live without him.
David and Desarie were from Montgomery, Alabama. Desarie was a slave and David, his face born in the image of a cornucopia with the words “The Harvest,” was her master’s son. David’s energy appears in the drawing, not as a life I had lived, but to tell the story of forbidden love.
David fell in love with Desarie, and she with him. But, because of their differences; he a wealthy plantation owner’s son and she, a black female slave, their love for one another would not set well within the community, and much less with the master. When he learned of their courtship he immediately took matters into his own hands. He offered Desarie her freedom and agreed to set her up with a sewing business in New Orleans if she would leave, ending their relationship. Feeling as though she really didn’t have a choice, she reluctantly accepted his offer leaving in the late hours of the night never to be heard from again. David was heartbroken. How could she do this to him without an explanation, or a goodbye?
Several years later David’s father succumbed to an illness and passed away leaving David to run the plantation. He learned of his father’s ‘deal’ he had made with Desarie and set off to New Orleans to find his lost love. He did eventually locate her and professed his love, asking her to marry him. She refused. Although she loved David dearly she knew that their union would never be accepted; besides, she was in love with another man, the one she loved with all of her heart. She wanted David to meet him and hoped he would understand. Desarie introduced the two of them; stunned, David stared down into the eyes of his own son.
Clark Madison is dated 1941. His story tells of his love for the young woman who holds his heart. Clark worked as a Pharmacist and fell in love with a beautiful woman. When the woman became pregnant Clark wanted to marry her. Yet, she told him the child belonged to another man; a man who made more money than him. Clark was brokenhearted. In his devastation, he joined the military and was killed in WWII.
And finally, we have Tenera, an Atlantian Conduit, with the words “Position Changed.” Tenera, along with others like her, lived within the Temple of Atlantis and many would come to her for healing and guidance along their path. Tenera had the ‘gift’ which is symbolized by the crystal above her third eye. During the fall of Atlantis Tenera was escorted by boat under heavy guard, known as the ‘protectors,’ to the great land of Egypt where she lived the remainder of her life.
J. Lee Hall expressed the importance of understanding why these particular lifetimes came through and how they play a viable role in this lifetime. Each life, she stated, represents a period of my life.
Umani represented my youth as a child and fighting to be heard and understood. This made sense to me being the second of six children. My older sister had her place as the first born. The next two after me were my younger sister and brother who were special needs children and required a lot of my mother’s time and attention. Then there came the baby girl, and 7 years later, the last born, a son. Everyone seemed to have their place in the family and I always felt ‘overlooked.’ I feel that this was why I became an over-achiever in an effort to be noticed.
Jeanine represented my teenage years when my psychic gifts became more predominant in my life. As much as I tried to make them go away so I could be normal, they remained strong in my energy. It was then that I realized this is who I am and I should just embrace it. I soon began doing ‘readings’ for my friends to help them out with their problems.
Ok’Sha represented my young adult years, living carefree and happy. I didn’t care about status, or name brands, or being wealthy aspiring to land that big job which accompanied the big paycheck. I was a simple person enjoying the simple life.
Mechia represented my divorce from my first husband. I fell into a state of depression after being deceived by my husband when I learned of his ‘other’ son who had been born just six months after my own son. It was at this time of my life that borne the feeling of distrust for love.
David and Desarie represented my mid-life time frame. I had a best friend, Gary, who I would lean on and share my troubles regarding my boyfriend. He was a kind man, quiet and gentle, who had never been married. It was during this time in my life that this past life drawing had been done. When I saw David’s face I felt a shock of familiarity. I felt as though I was staring into Gary’s face! It felt very strange, but made sense that we would have shared a previous lifetime together.
Then one day, as I was waiting to be seated at a restaurant, I noticed Gary sitting in the dining room with a woman. For some reason I was so upset to see him with that woman. I even caught myself and thought, ‘What is wrong with you? He’s your friend and you should be happy for him.’ Still, when we were seated just two tables away from him, I stuck my nose in the air ignoring his greeting as we walked past him. A couple of minute’s later Gary joined me at my table, and then it hit me; I was in love with Gary! It became obvious that he felt the same for me as he remained at my table, forgetting about the female ‘friend’ who had accompanied him to dinner.
Clarke represented my life during this same time frame as I had a difficult time trusting the emotion of love. It was hard for me to open up and show affection, fearful of rejection and deception. But, Gary was patient and true to his feelings. Gradually, I allowed the trust to open up within me and one year later, we were married, proving the harvest that ‘David’ had promised.
Tenera came forward to show me that my psychic abilities were real and that it was time to step out into the world as a psychic medium, rather than the closet psychic I had been. Her message of ‘position changed’ represented my decision to stop trying to fit into the mold that others expected of me, but to follow my truth and fulfill my desire to teach and help others. In lieu of the friction I have received in my career choice; I am finally doing what I love.
All of these life experiences have played an important role in the evolution of my life during this lifetime. I have healed some karmic issues that I came in with, and learned to embrace the inner beauty of my soul by drawing upon these past experiences as well as those I have gained during this lifetime thus far. I have finally married the love of my life, and I now understand the fulfillment of living my truth and following in the steps of the contract I created when I came into this lifetime. J. Lee stated that as I continue to grow along this life path some of the faces on the canvas will fade, while others will come forward through the chalk. Remember all the faces I saw through the scribbles? I can actually see new faces beginning to ‘bleed’ through the chalk on the canvas. In continuing to work with my past life experiences I know that I am following the plan of uniting the dimensions that represent all of who I am, and will come to be.
